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Kickthestickz- Love Letter- Part 4Dear PJ
It's fine, it doesn't matter, it's over now and we can be together. God, I don't think I will ever get used to saying that - 'together' it makes me feel delirious. Stop infecting me with your love sickness!!
Don't worry about telling people. If we tell anyone and they leave us then they clearly aren't the people we think they are. I don't care what people think, as long as I have you. I expect to be seeing that slow motion run into my arms next time we meet! You owe me one! Hey why not invite everyone to see it, that's one way of telling them that won't involve an awkward conversation!
A romantic date huh? I always knew you were a hopeless romantic! You don't know what you have got yourself into; it will be the best date ever. One condition though, if I live up to my name you have to admit that I am always right. Also you must do whatever I say for one day.Whatever I say.
I am perfectly fine with poetic PJ, love sick PJ and soppy PJ! Do you know why? It's because I love you, I
Kickthestickz- Love Letter- Part 3
I had no idea. Sorry for not noticing your actions but I never know if you are joking or not when it comes to our ... relationship? I just assumed you were joking, as always. Now I know though, I can't get this stupid grin off my face and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't feeling light headed.
No matter how tempted I am to do a dramatic slow motion run into your arms, I have to ask a couple of questions first.
Where do we go from here? Do we tell our friends? What about our parents? Do we hide this from our fans?
One thing I do know though, is that you need to take me on an official first date. Since you're always gloating about how 'rich' you are- you can pay. It better be romantic Mr Kendall! I expect big things from a 'ladies man' such as yourself.
I miss you. It's soppy and stupid that I do because we met recently but I can't help but want you near me. I always feel like all is right in the world when I'm with you. God, I sound so love sick but it's hard n
Kickthestickz- Love Letter- Part 2Dear PJ
While reading your letter, I started smiling and I couldn't stop. It's funny how you can do that to me even when you are not here.
Yes, I do remember the time we practically spooned on the sofa. How could I forget? I remember it differently though. I remember wanting to wrap my arms around your waist and pull you closer, I remember wanting so badly to kiss you and I remember the emptiness I felt when you left my side. That night was painful for me. There you were, so close but I
could do nothing.
The thing that really astounds me is how adorably oblivious you are. I have lost count of the amount of times I pushed the boundaries of friendship so that I could flirt with you. The amount of times you've caught me staring at you. The amount of times my touches have lasted a little too long to be considered friendly. Every time I was about to give up thinking you didn't return my feelings you'd give me some small sign that gave me hope again.
I don't know what kept me going. After al
Kickthestickz - The adventure of lovePJ's POV
"We are going on an adventure!" Chris announced from his place next to me on the sofa, his body turned to face me and his eyes dancing in anticipation. One month ago Chris had confessed his feelings to me and although I had not been sure of my own, I agreed to give it a try. I had got used to Chris's spontaneous attitude by now and moments like the one I was faced with today were not uncommon. I regarded him, taking in his stance, expression and bright eyes – it was clear he was very excited.
"Lead the way" I reply simply. I don't bother to ask where (he wouldn't tell me and I prefer the surprise). Chris grins widely, grabs my hand and rushes to the door, dragging me behind him. His hand is reaching for the door handle when I sigh and pull him back. It's the middle of December and he is wearing a thin t-shirt, pyjama bottoms and nothing on his feet. He twists round so he can see me and I make a show of looking him up and down. He glances at himself and blushes before looking u
Kickthestickz - Hate commentsChris's POV
I sighed sadly as I scrolled down the comments on my new video. So they had found out about me and PJ huh. There were nice words and congratulations plus a fair few with people writing things like 'I knew it!!' and 'My fan girl heart just exploded!' which made me chuckle. But lurking among them were comments that broke my heart 'you're going out?! Unsubscribed!' 'Faggot' and more sinister ones 'You don't deserve your subscribers, go kill yourself.' They are stupid and immature and I know I should just ignore them but they are hurtful. They make me worry about PJ, what if he was getting the same thing? He found it harder to mask his feelings than me and I can imagine the comments hurting him more. My hand hovered over my phone, should I call him? Or will he just think I am overreacting? Despite my worries I couldn't deny I needed him, so I press the call button and chewed nervously on my bottom lip as it rings.
"Hello? ... Chris?"
I was momentarily stunned by how much I had
The end Warning- Suicide
So this was it, her last moments on earth. She had thought she might change her mind, staring across the endless ocean as the sun set in the distance. Perhaps memories would come back containing reasons for her to carry on living and she would lift up the oars and row back to shore. She realised how naive this thought had been, she was now so far past that point they seemed laughable. Any happy thoughts had been lost in the haze a long time ago, along with the days when she used to smile. Now all that presided in her tortured mind was acceptance, she was ready. In fact she needed this, wanted this, craved the nothingness and the release she would soon be feeling as life left her scarred body.
The gentle patter of rain jarred her from her dark imaginings and she watched with morbid curiosity as the rounded droplets splashed against the wooden planks separating her from the water. She had always loved rain and yet now she saw its arrival a
Kickthestickz - Bright Night - Part 10PJ's POV
I woke up from my nap when I felt people moving around me. Looking up I saw Dan coming down the stairs tugging a sheepish looking Chris behind him
"Come on, everybody out" he said firmly. There were groans of dissapoint from the small crowd
"PJ's tired" he reasoned but he glanced at Chris after he said it making the older boy blush slightly. I was too tired to wonder about it though instead I wearily began the long task of hugging all the guests.
When it was finally just me,Chris,Dan and Phil left I let out a sigh of relief. The party had really taken it out of me and a warm bed would be very welcome right now. Dan smiled when he saw my eyelids droop and pulled me into an affectionate hug.
"I'll get out of your hair now and leave you in Chris's capable hands"
he winked- well attempted to and then hit Phil when he laughed before making his way to Chris. Phil moved in to hug me
"I'm really glad things worked out between you and Chris!" he said smiling and my cheeks were tinged r
Kickthestickz - Bright Night - Part 9Phil's POV
When we got to the hospital to see PJ (after allowing Chris some alone time with him) we were informed he had been discharged. Dan was annoyed that Chris hadn't notified us of this change but I think they probably just wanted to get out of here as soon as possible. I patted Dans back to calm him down and he sighed
"Sorry ... It's just they both almost died and we have barely seen them" I smiled at him.
"I know Dan, but we can just go and see them now. They will be at PJ's house, I don't think
Chris's place is ... available right now" we both grimaced then Dan nodded
"Yeh, I'd like that" he replied. We left the hospital and took a taxi to PJ's place, neither of us making a sound as we remembered what had happened the last time we had been in a taxi.
When we arrived at PJ's door I wondered if we would be welcome, even though we are his friends and I sent him a text saying we were coming (to which he didn't reply) I felt bad for turning up unasked. Dan kne
Kickthestickz - Bright Night - Part 8Chris's POV
That was close, I nearly blew it there. Had I seriously been about to kiss my best friend? Well it was his fault for being so damn gorgeous! With that bed hair and eyes that draw you in ... I knew staying so close to PJ was going to be hard but I didn't expect it to be this hard! If it hadn't been for that nurse I wouldn't have been able to stop myself, but she wasn't always going to be there to save my arse. I had to gain some more self control and quickly!
He did lean in though... That's a point, why did he lean in? I was close enough to him as it was, was he experiencing the same cravings as me? I don't want to get my hopes up and see them crushed again; it's something that seems to happen a lot to me. Maybe I could test the waters, joke about it a bit and see if I get a response. 'Chris you have been doing that for over two years now!' piped up the voice of negativity that always lurked in the back of my mind. I'll step it up a notch then, and if I get a bad
Designer!Levi x Model!Reader - Mannequin - [AU]
You were about to break down right them and there. The sassy gay assistant had made a comment about your unusual ass shape, needles were poking into your skin, and if this douchebag didn't stop being rude to you, you were going to scream. You thought being the prototype model for world renounced fashion designer Levi Ackerman would be an amazing, extravagant experience. Boy were you far off the mark. You began to shake your body in anger and fear, only to be stopped by another needle piercing your flesh.
"Ouch!! Could you please stop-"
"Shut the fuck up princess, I can't sew it into place if I don't use needles."
The well dressed ebony haired man continued to ignore your complains, layering fabric on top of the original prototype dress he had you slip on. Staying still like this really was a chore, at least when you did runway or photo shoots you got to move around. You were truly on your last nerve, and what assistant Jean Kirst
England x Reader - Drunken Confession
If there was one thing you hated the most, it had to be people attempting to contact you when you were trying so desperately to sleep.
What time was it again? Gaze flickering to your nightstand where a digital clock rested, you exhaled a sigh once your eyes skimmed over the bright numbers.
You should be asleep by now, but no – instead, whoever controlled your fate decided to pull a jerk move and force you awake due to your phone going off.
At first, your phone only went off once, signaling that you’d received one text. Normally you ignored things like that, dismissing it as something you could reply to in the morning – however, one text turned into two, and before you knew it, your phone went off at least ten times within the time span of five minutes.
Someone was obviously needing to contact you, and with a groan,
Levi x Reader - The Notebook - [AU]
“I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me,
this has always been enough.”
"Mrs. (First)," the kind nurse called to you. "Mr. A is here! He's coming to read to you again."
Your eyes looked out at the large lake outside this place, feeling connected and compelled to go down there. The outside world was so lovely, it's a shame you were caged up like this. An old, frail hand rested against the window, eyes glazed with melancholy. You couldn't help but think you were forgetting something, but you simply dismissed this, knowing it'd return to you in time.
As you turned around, you saw an older man with dark gray hair enter your room, a notebook in hand. For an older man though, he still was damn good looking. Hell, he was just good
Levi x Reader - What Love Really Means
Levi found you, you where a whimpering 8 year old, about to die from starvation and blood loss. Levi was never one to really help strangers out, but his heart broke when he saw that little girl, shaking in fear for her life. Some store owners had stabbed you when you attempted to steal some food, causing your condition to even worsen. With a heavy sigh, the 24-year-old man patched you up with some spare rags, trying desperately to stop the bleeding. You still couldn't stop crying, despite the help you were receiving from the stranger.
"Oi, why are you still crying block head?"
The alley way was dark and dirty, and you were positive you were bleeding all over yesterday's rotten trash. The stench of filth and death invaded both sets of nostrils, making both of you a bit nauseous.
"I-I'm gonna die," you sobbed, tears running down your face.
"Tch, you're not gonna die idiot. Not while I'm around."
You choked on your cries
Thug!Levi x Reader - Karma - [AU]
If you do bad things, bad things happen to you. That's what we've all been told since we were just kids, right? If you treat someone badly, they'll treat you badly, or if you steal, you'll be stolen from. Levi figured all of his karma would catch up to him one day, he just didn't know when. He was a man of all sorts of vices, and lived like this because it was the only life he knew. Murder, drugs, theft, assault; this was the life he lived. He figured the time would come eventually when someone would find himself face down with pool pooled all around his body. You don't get far being a thug without making quite a few enemies after all.
Karma, doesn't always seem to happen in this world however.
When he first saw you, he didn't exactly know what he felt. There was physical attraction, enough to make him aroused in public actually, but there was something deeper hidden within him, ready to germ
Levi x Reader - The Morning After
For the first time in ages, Levi opened his eyes to find a woman at his side, snuggled into the comfort of his arms. This is the same woman he has had his eye on for quite sometime, young squad leader (first) (last). Since no one was currently looking at him, he didn't give a damn and softened his facial expression, pupils focusing on your soft (hair color) locks. It had been forever since he felt this happy. His loneliness was coming to an end at last after many cold and restless nights. Golden rays of sun shined down on you, glorifying your beauty even more to the man as he gently placed a soft kiss at the top of your head.
Long lashes were batted in the midst of fluttering eyelids, giving glimpses at those beautiful (eye color) irises he loved reavealed to him. You were perfect in every way, and why a girl like you decided to give her body to a man like him, he didn't understand. Still, he didn't care about any of that shit, especially when he saw your warm smile
Yandere!Levi x Reader - Pillow
Yandere!Levi x Reader
Warning: This is some fucked up shit man. Creepy and disturbing scenes are in this story. Read at your own risk.
Boots nearly dragged on the cold stone ground as the day had come to a close, and what a day it was. Cadets were whining and slacking on chores, Hanji wouldn't shut her mouth, Erwin was on his ass about paperwork, and Petra kept trying to make unwanted advances on him. He was at his limits, and all he wished to do was retire to his bed and find comfort. Paperwork had consumed his attention into the late hours of the night, silent scribbles and breathing the only sounds throughout the building. Things just weren't the same anymore, he didn't know if there would ever be such thing as a normal. No, normal was long gone, never to come back again. But, he did have the second best thing.
A strong grip was placed on a frigid door knob, only adding to the aggravation of the situation. Not that Levi particularly enjoyed scorch
Levi x Reader - Clumsy
When your eyes met, it felt like glaciers piercing your pupils, and you certainly felt a rush of adrenaline. This man, Captain Levi Ackerman, was possibly the most handsome man you'd ever seen in your 18 years here on earth. Although short in stature, he held himself in a tall, confident manner. With being so gravitated towards him though, there were some drawbacks. The main one being your clumsy ass could hardly put one foot in front of the other in his presance.
A few months after joining the Survey Corps, you noticed your favorite man walking outside in the opposite direction. Now seemed like a perfect time to make a certain captain's head turn. You tried to walk past Levi in a sexy, mysterious manor, but you ended up tripping over your own two feet, face flat on the ground.
"Dammit!" you cried out, spitting out the dirt that accumulated in your mouth.
Levi, detesting filth, was revolted by this s
Levi x Reader - Trip on Love
Trip on Love
Levi x Reader
A/N: Listen to the damn song it's cute. Trip on Love
After training hard for the entire day, you finally had some time together with that short 'friend' of yours. You didn't exactly know what you both were, but you had passionately kissed the man earlier and were now sitting on his lap. Obviously, there was chemistry and attraction between the two of you. Your friendship had grown into something more as of recently, something you couldn't be happier about. He liked you like this too, he often felt lonely in the confinement of his office. Hearing your sweet giggles was the perfect remedy to help him forget his woes. Although there was no physical interaction during the day, he would sometimes show you soft gazes or go easy on your mistakes. At night or in private though, he couldn't keep his hands off you, intoxicated by your beauty. He couldn't explain this feeling stirring i
Kickthestickz- Love Letter
I know this is old fashioned and you always complain that you can't read my writing but no other way seemed right. I can't tell you this face to face for fear of your reaction and this way, you can choose just to ignore me and get on with your life.
I don't know how I am finding it so hard to write this. You'd think after hours and months of going over and over the ways I could say it, it would be easy.
Do you remember that time when all of our friends were going to some party they'd been going on about for so long but I was too ill to go? Even though you had been looking forward to it for ages, you stayed behind with me and we snuggled up on the sofa and watched films all evening. It's one of my favourite memories and every time I think of it I can't help but fall even deeper.
What I'm trying to say, really, is that I'm falling in love with you. It was a slow descent at first and then I started tumbling head over heels.
I could try and blame it on you. You
a dangerous hallucinationThe light coming through the window was bright,
much too bright.
Even though my eyes were closed
I could see it-
The skin of my arms prickled,
sweat dripped from my brow.
It was two in the afternoon but…
the sun was setting
through the window facing east.
I should have seen the hutch,
shelves lined with bone china
decorated with delicate leaves and vines.
I was so thirsty
and reaching for cups that should have been there.
Instead I found a billboard of butterflies,
the colors raging
more than any rainbow
I'd ever seen.
Their wings fluttered and flashed
yet somehow they moved in slow motion.
I wanted to stand,
wanted to reach out and touch them but…
I couldn't move,
and yet I laughed
ignoring my dry mouth
and the tingling in my feet.
There was a tempest
on the rise
and in my blood.
A sugar rush disguised
as a riot of butterflies
and they were swarming me.
There was a small vial
of insulin in my pocket
that I nev
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